| IIIM Magazine Online, Volume 4, Number 34, December 12- December 19, 2002 | 
Can you tell us of your background in Islam? 
I grew up as a Muslim boy. My 
parents were Muslims, although they weren't devout. You'd call them nominal 
because they followed all the customs that Islam requires. So right from my 
childhood, as soon as I could read and write, I had to sit with a Muslim priest 
(or mullah) so he could teach me how to read the Qur'an. He would come every 
morning. I would sit with him for at least an hour each morning at our home, 
with my brothers and sisters. My parents paid him. He taught us seven days a 
week how to read the Qur'an. That was how I learnt Islam. 
Does this happen to all Muslim children? 
Yes, whether they are nominal or not, it is expected. 
Some people may not be able to do it due to the lack of money, but nev-ertheless 
it is a desire. Muslim societies also 
have something called the madrassa. It's like a theological institution, but not 
nearly as sophisticated as in the Western world. They are usually set up in 
villages and in other places where the mullahs come at a specific time each day. 
On average, 50 to 60 children might come for a couple of hours. The village 
people find it a relatively easy and inexpensive way to instruct their children. 
Wealthy Saudis and others pour millions of dollars every year into funding 
madrassas, particularly in other countries like Pakistan, where they become the 
breeding grounds of militant Islam.
 
What's it like to grow 
up in an Islamic culture? 
At the time I loved it. Islam gave me some very strong 
ideals. As a Muslim boy I had deep aspirations: how can I best serve Islam? How 
best can I serve my Muslim country? And I decided as a boy that I would be an 
officer in the army. I wanted to fight for my country and 
the cause of Islam. Even as a child I believed 
that the greatest sacrifice 
a man can make is to give his life for Allah and his country. I was also taught 
as early as I can remember that Israel was our number one enemy and that the 
Jewish people had to be annihilated. My life was lived in this atmosphere. And 
so you've got specific calls as you are growing up. As you go through school, 
college and university there is a thread that is tying your life together. For 
someone like me,who wanted to give his life for Islam and his country, all these 
things, when you put them together, brought me to the conclusion that I had to 
join the army and 
be a career officer and a loyal Muslim. 
Why were you so concerned to 
give your life for your country and for Islam? 
 You have to understand 
what it's like to be a Muslim. You can never experience any true peace. You can 
never be sure that your good deeds will outweigh the bad ones that you have done 
in your life. The only way that you can be absolutely sure about going to heaven 
is to die on the battlefield as a warrior for Allah. And so that was one of my 
regular prayers as an officer, as a soldier, that Allah might grant me the mercy 
to die on the battlefield for the cause of Islam. I used to pray this every day 
because I believed that if I died as a martyr, in the cause of my religion, then 
I would go straight to heaven. This was the way to escape judgment. In my case, 
I knew that if my deeds were weighed on the balance I would most likely go to 
hell. So to die in battle and avoid the judgment was a great relief. 
    
   
Is this the main reason young 
Muslim men are happy to die in the cause of Islam? 
 I believe it is. That 
was what we were taught. It was explained to me that, according to the Qur'an, 
there was only one sure way to go to heaven, and that was by suffering death in 
jihad (holy war). 
                
  
The Qur'an teaches that if a man dies fighting for 
Allah he is guaranteed the forgiveness of all sins and is assured of a reserved 
place in paradise (3: 157; 
169). Further, he is promised a crown of glory and the sexual pleasures of 
72 virgins. He is also absolved from the suffering of the grave and the horrors 
of judgment. And then there's the added bonus 
that if you die striving in the cause of 
Allah, you can bring 70 of your relatives with 
you into paradise. I believe this is why so many young Muslims, especially 
Palestinians, are willing to die as martyrs in the war against Jews and other 
infidels. You have everything to gain by dying on the battlefield. There's 
really nothing to lose. It's hard for people in the West to understand this 
because here we have a completely different outlook on life. But in a genuine 
Muslim setting all of life is dominated by religion. There is no division 
between sacred and secular. You 
don't have a separation between church and state because the interests of Islam 
and the national interest merge. It is the duty of an Islamic state to 
further the interests of religion. So it is impossible for the individual to 
escape from Islam. 
        
      
People in the West find this 
difficult to grasp because we experience such tremendous freedoms here. And it 
is this freedom that so many Muslims resent, particularly here in Australia. I 
will never forget a meeting where I was speaking in Australia. A young Muslim 
man about 18 years old came up to me at the end of my talk. He was very 
passionate. We had an exchange and he finished by saying: "You know the biggest 
enemy in this country is freedom." This is the normal way to think in an Islamic 
society. Muslims believe that we are meant to be guided, moulded, shaped by our 
religious teachers. There is no personal freedom. They believe that the soul is 
seasoned and grows as it submits unquestioningly to the teaching of the 
Qur'an. 
So did you progress into 
the army? 
       Yes, I joined the army. It took me five years to prepare for 
all the interviews because the tests and competition for a commission were very 
tough: 20,000 people applied and only 19 were accepted. But the prospects for 
career advancement were exceptional and so I was glad to get in. My great 
ambition was to be a general by my mid-40s. So I put everything, every effort, 
every energy, every thought, everything toward that goal. 
And what happened then? 
    Well, my career came to a 
grinding halt because of a civil war. And my life became even more complicated 
because I became a Christian. All these changes took place during a number of 
years, and I need to explain what happened in my life so that you can see how 
the Lord amazingly brought me to himself. 
Tell us. 
  While I was planning to join the army, 
I realised that I would have to learn English because all the interviews were 
conducted in it. But I had a problem: no one could teach me to speak it. But one 
day I heard some people singing in English in a church, so I knocked on the door and 
went inside. It was a Gospel Hall run by the Australian 
Baptist Missionary Society and the preacher was speaking in 
English. So I figured out that it was a good place to come every Sunday to hear 
English. And I told my parents about it. They were very happy that I'd found a 
place like that because they wanted me to join the army. And so my parents made 
sure that no one prevented me from going to church. It's funny that later my 
father disowned me because I became a Christian. Yet, even he, in the early 
days, made sure that I was free to go there. So when I went there and I began to 
meet the missionaries. And I discovered that they were really fine people. And 
that started me asking questions: Why are these people so different to the 
impression that I have been given of people from the West? 
So what ultimately led you to 
Christ? 
       The preaching of Jesus Christ. Though outwardly I was learning 
English, inwardly my spirit was learning about Christ. So there was a testimony 
born in my own spirit, if I can put it this way. And then we had a preacher come 
from Egypt, his name was Mr Girghis, and I was invited to come and listen to him 
one evening. And his subject was: "How big are you in the sight of God?" And 
that challenged me because I was trying to join the army to be a commissioned 
officer, and in those days in my country if you were an army officer you were 
like a little king; everything was given to you, you were the elite of society. 
People gave you gifts and did whatever they could to please you. Free tickets, 
free meals, reserved seats all that sort of thing. But Mr Girghis challenged me 
about whether it was right to be so proud and exercise such power and authority. 
And on that night I had a dream. And in that dream I found that I was in the 
army and I was authorised to go and bring in someone dead or alive. And so I 
went to this person's place and I said to him: "Come with me or I'll take your 
body with me." And he refused to come. This is my dream! And I was about to kill 
him. Then the window in that room opened up and a burst of light came through 
that window. I fell to the floor (this was in my dream) and I was almost 
blinded. And then I heard a voice say: "Stand up." And I stood up. And the voice 
said: "Open your eyes." And I opened my eyes and I could see through the window 
something like a star (but it was more than a star). I can't describe it, but it 
was a light. And then the same voice said: "Who are you to destroy my creation?" 
At that point I woke up. And I began to think about how true it was. You know, 
if you haven't made something then you have no right to destroy it. And that 
stirred me up quite a lot. Then we had our civil war. So I had to take a side in 
that, and I joined the rebels. It's a very long story. As I look back, I can see 
how God saved my life on many occasions through the help of Christian people and 
by the Lord directing my circumstances. It was ultimately through all these 
things that I met my wife too. 
     
  
To convert to Christianity in Islamic culture is a profound 
religious act with life-and-death consequences. Why did you feel you could no 
longer continue as a Muslim and you had to be a follower of Jesus? 
There 
are a number of things. As a Muslim you are told from your childhood that you 
cannot question the unquestionable. And the Qur'an is unquestionable. And my 
problem was that I was question-ing a number of things. For instance, I had 
questions about the status of women. I could not accept their status or the way 
they were treated in Islam. In my country they were looked at as though they 
were less than human. I found that very difficult to accept. But I was not able 
to question this teaching because if I asked the mullah, he would say: "Ssh. 
Hush. You are not to ask that kind of question." The problem is that if the 
Qur'an says: "The sun rises in the west", and you know for a fact that it 
doesn't, you've still got to accept that the sun rises in the west. The other 
problem was that there were all sorts of contradictions in the Qur'an. Some 
things that Muhammad said at the beginning are contradicted later on. But my 
problem was this: if the Qur'an is the word of God, then how can there be later 
revelations that actually contradict the earlier ones? It should be the one, 
consistent message all the way through. I was also troubled by the blatant 
homosexuality of many of the priests. 
Many of these men knew the 
Qur'an back-to-front yet they lived hypocritical lives. So those things really 
hit me hard and made me ask: "What is the alternative?" 
Do many Muslims share your spiritual longings? 
Yes, particularly Muslims who have had the opportunity 
to get a good education and have been to university. They have all sorts of 
questions and spiritual struggles. The problem is that very few Muslims have 
read the Qur'an. They may have read 
bits here and there, but mostly they have heard what the priests, the mullahs, 
have said. About 
80 percent of Muslims have not read the Qur'an right through with understanding. 
Many mullahs have never read right through either. 
Do you think that many Muslims share your views on Islam? 
Educated Muslims undoubtedly share some of the 
misgivings that I have had about Islam. The problem is that once they enter the 
Muslim community they are not able to have a questioning attitude. One of the 
problems is that when push comes to shove, moderates usually become fanatics. 
You can see this tendency quite clearly in the response of many Muslims to the 
gang rapes that were committed in Sydney over the past few years. While some 
community leaders have condemned them, the overall effect has been to unite 
Muslims. I would love to be a fly on the walls of some of their meetings to hear 
exactly what they are discussing. But if their thinking is similar to the way 
mine used to be when I was a Muslim, then I know one thing: they will never 
really feel at home in Australia. 
How do Muslims 
cope with being so different to the rest of Australia? 
I think they find 
it very hard. They feel that they are strangers here. And their religion leads 
them to them having a "them-us" mentality. I think that's one of the reasons why 
many Muslims feel that they need to have a part of Australia where they can 
exercise their faith with-out any interference from Western and non-Muslim 
influences. I'm not a prophet, but I believe that there are a lot of Muslims in 
Australia who are hoping that some day a part of Australia will be declared an 
Islamic state, in say, 20, 30, or 50 years. And their numbers are increasing 
dramatically. We are told that the Australian families are producing 1.7 
children on average; however, Muslim families are having an average five or six 
children. 
Many Muslims are coming here as immigrants. When you look at 
all these facts in a social perspective, I don't think it's unreasonable to 
foresee a lot of instability several decades from now. It happened in Lebanon 
when a majority Maronite population was overtaken by the fast-growing Muslim Druze community. The 
government needs to be aware of this potential problem. 
 
There seems to be a worldwide 
resur-gence of Islam at the moment. What's driving it? Is it the wealth of the 
Arab oil nations? 
I don't think it's Arab wealth. It's more a matter of 
the Islamic worldview. Islam is different to Christianity in that it expands by 
military conquest. The church is meant to grow through evangelism and 
conversion. But Islam has grown historically through armed conflict and 
territorial gain. In Islam, territory is directly related to religion. Islam has 
not spread by sending missionaries; it spreads through military conquest. Look 
what's going on in Indonesia and West Papua at the moment. Christian communities 
are being attacked and murdered by the Laskar Jihad. This is how Muslim 
influence is growing there; through conquest and fear. As soon as lands are 
captured, the locals are given an option: "become a Muslim or perish." There is 
a saying: "It is better for you to die under the sword of the Muslim than to die 
as an infidel." Muslims also give a choice to the Jews and Christians: "You 
either become Muslims or you will be put in a class called 'Dhimmi', which means 
a second-class citizen." In that case, you have to pay an extra tax for the 
privileges of living in a Muslim country. Muslim scholars see jihad (holy war) 
as a basic Muslim duty. They are required to wage war as a religious act against 
all who attack Muslim territory as well as against infidels, apostates and 
People of the Book (Jews and Christians). They divide the world between what they call the dar al-Islam (land of Islam) and the 
dar al-harb(land of war). Muslims believe that they 
must struggle to expand the dar al-Islam throughout the world so 
that everyone will have the opportunity to live within a just Islamic political 
and social order. In other words, they want to increase the political territory 
under their control. People need to know this. 
But if Muslims are religiously at odds with societies that 
are non-Islamic, why do they go to live in them? 
        Sometimes they may not 
have a choice. They may be forced into these countries by circumstances beyond 
their control. But if they act consistently with their beliefs they will have to 
struggle against the culture and religion of the society where they find 
themselves. And this doesn't mean that they have to move away. Look what's 
happening in Nigeria and Sudan. There, various parts of the country have been 
declared Muslim and they come under the Shariah law as the Muslim proportion of 
the population grows or gains political power. The Islamic worldview will 
ultimately present Western nations with a huge political problem. Muslims don't 
send missionaries like the Christian church. They just send floods of people. 
And once their numbers grow, then they begin to exert political pressure. They 
have already asked the British parliament several years ago for the right to set 
up an Islamic parliament to govern 
the affairs of the Muslim community there. They were 
turned down. It's possible that a similar 
request could be made in Australia in, say, 30 years time. I have a friend who 
went along to a mosque in Sydney. The people in the mosque embraced and welcomed 
him. They even offered him a Turkish girl that he could marry and who would take 
care of him very well. They said to him, "Brother, you should join us. This land 
is ours. And it will be ours." And he said, "Well, we're only a small group 
now." And they said, "Oh, maybe today we are 300,000 but give us a few more 
years and we'll be 3 million." That's the sort of aspirations that many of them 
have. Unfortunately, many Australians with whom I speak are completely naïve in 
understanding the religious and political ambitions of Islam. If they bothered 
to look on Islamic web-sites they would see what I mean (www.islam.org.au  
           ). 
Why do Muslims have such a problem with Western culture? 
Because they believe 
that Western culture is completely corrupt. For instance this comment about 
Australia came off an Islamic web-site: "It is therefore inevitable as long as 
we live here, that we will, through a process of cultural osmosis, take on some of the characteristics of the kafirs 
(unbelievers). 
The comparison of Islam to the kafir is like that of fresh, clear spring water 
and water brought up from the bottom of suburban sewer. If even a drop of the 
filthy water enters the clearwater, the clarity diminishes. Likewise, 
it only takes a drop of the filth of disbelief to contaminate Islam in the West. 
If we have it within our means we should therefore consider moving to a Muslim 
land whereby we can at least live amongst our brethren and within an Islamic 
society free from the contamination of the unbelievers" (www.islam.org.au Preserving the Islamic 
Identity in the West: Threats and Solutions). 
I think this explains why 
Muslims have such a difficult time accommodating themselves to western culture. 
Their religion sets up a barrier. 
Why is America 
the object of so much Islamic hatred? The Americans helped Muslims in 
Afghanistan and Bosnia, and give billions of dollars to Egypt. 
 The 
problem with the Americans is tied up with the Muslim hatred for Israel. If 
America did not back Israel it would be a totally different situation. However, 
because America backs Israel, Muslims refer to it as the "greater Satan," and 
Israel is known as the "little Satan". Of course, the tension between Israel and 
Islam goes all the way back to the hostility that arose between Isaac and 
Ishmael in the time of Abraham. And Israel's strength is America. America has 
put its money, wealth, armour, technology into Israel. And Israel is a 
reflection of the West in the middle of an autocratic, dictatorial, Islamic 
world. And so in every way Israel is an offence. Israel's problem goes back into 
Abraham's days because, again in tradition, it says that the Jews were Allah's 
biggest enemy. 
   
Why is Islam 
more militant than other religions? Is there something in its theology? 
 
 Yes, there is. One of the central concepts of Islam is jihad. Jihad 
literally means "to struggle". It is a Muslim's duty to struggle in 
the path of God and in the example of the prophet Mohammed and 
his 
early companions. While jihad has been interpreted in a number of different 
ways, in recent years growing numbers of Muslims have maintained that it's a 
universal religious obligation for all true 
Muslims to 
join the jihad to promote a global Islamic revolution. Some of the more vocal 
and radical groups combine militancy and messianic visions and call upon their 
followers to take up armed struggle to subject the world to Allah. I was taught 
as a small boy that I must engage in jihad against Israel. I learned from my 
mullah and family to hate the Jewish people. I was told that the number one 
enemy of Allah is the Jews and they are to be annihilated; the state of Israel 
was to be destroyed. All 
Muslims are taught this. 
Do all Muslims believe it? 
     As far as I am 
aware. It's an essential belief of Islam because I've quoted to you from the 
Qur'an just now: "The stone will say: 'There is a Jew hiding behind me. 'A tree 
will say: 'There is a Jew hiding behind me. Kill him!'" Here the stone and the 
tree are talking to Muslims! And this is just one quotation. There are many 
other quotations in the Qur'an (see www.islam.org.au, The Termination of Israel: 
A Qur'anic Fact). So when, and I will be honest with you, you read the Qur'an 
from the beginning to the end, it is not a book that propagates peace. It is a 
book that propagates war. Having been a devout Muslim myself, I cannot 
understand the ignorance of people in the West who say that Islam is a religion 
of peace. How can they say that when it is used by the people to drive planes 
into towers and to kill people throughout the centuries? All I can say is that they have not studied the Qur'an and that they are ignorant 
of history. 
Could attacking Iraq unite the 
Islamic world against the West and renew persecution against the Church? 
Most certainly. The church is already persecuted, 
and it will be even more so. In Pakistan, as you know, numbers of Christians 
have been deliberately murdered in cold-blood in recent months. In other places 
around the world many Christians are being martyred every day in places like Ambon and the Sudan. In 
Islamic countries you cannot practice Christianity openly. While the West gives 
Muslims the right to freely practise their faith, Muslim countries do not extend the same 
privileges to Christians or other religious 
minorities. For instance, in Saudi Arabia it is impossible 
to meet publicly for Christian worship. If you did so, you could risk the death penalty. Christians are forced to meet 
underground. 
Do you think that bin Laden is trying to trigger a 
massive confrontation with civilisations that ends in war? 
      That's right. 
I think he is trying to issue a world-wide call to Muslims to rise in jihad. The 
World Trade Centre attack was meant to be a trumpet call to Muslims to unite and 
to conquer the West. He wants to give Islam new strength and focus. Bin Laden's 
activity will probably be the catalyst for a new wave of militancy. His aim is 
to eradicate Jews and Christians. It's an historical fact that wherever Muslims 
conquered, gradually Christianity disappeared. For instance, in the Byzantine 
Empire the church played a major role; well, that came to an end with the Muslim 
invasions. Now that part of the world is completely dominated by the mosque. 
That's the story wherever Islam went. And now in the West I hear old church 
buildings are being purchased by Muslims who are turning them into mosques. And 
this is happening rapidly here as well as in other Western countries. I heard 
just the other day that when the mosque at Regents Park opened in London, one of 
the speakers said: "If we can win London, we can win the whole Western world." I 
attach great significance to that statement. It shows an aspiration and a desire 
to control and dominate the West. They believe that since everyone will become a 
Muslim at the end of history, why not become Muslims now? 
We are commanded to love all people and to share the Gospel 
with them. How do Christians go about witnessing and sharing the love of God 
with Muslims? Is it possible? 
    It's possible, but you have to remember 
that it can only be done in the power of God. You will come to nothing unless 
there is a supernatural breakthrough. Every conversion story that I've heard of 
Muslims has been different. And I've come to realise that every one of them has 
a supernatural intervention. You can read books like 
        
I 
Dared To Call Him Fatherand The 
Torn Veil   and a number of 
other testimonies. Every one of them is different. 
Christians must rely upon the power of 
God in reaching Muslims. Muslim out-reach is 75 percent praying and 25 percent 
witnessing. The spiritual veil that covers their eyes can only be removed by God 
himself in his sovereign will and purpose, and that's where the problem lies. We 
must love and respect them but that will be ineffective unless we pray for them. 
We must ask God to give them open minds because one of the problems is this that 
the moment you talk about Christ as the Son of God, you commit the unforgivable 
sin. And so we've got to love them, we've got to know as much as possible to 
start with, but never to enter into an argument because if you enter into an 
argument you will only create wars. If I sense there's an argument developing, I 
deliberately stop. I say: "Please, no more. I don't want to argue with you. 
Leave it for another day." Once you argue with anyone, that's it, nobody is 
going anywhere.